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26 September 2009 @ 06:07 pm
Life is full of amusements. It's confusing, thrilling, and unpredictable. Sometimes I wonder why there are imperfections, and how it is making life hard to bear and tough to live on. Then I realized, it's because of these imperfections that make beautiful things even more beautiful. So I could grow to be more appreciative of what I have around me.
I like to spend time alone, away from the people. Quiet libraries are good escapes with books helping to build temporary barriers to get away from the outside world. By turning pages, I follow someone else's story, and see into their minds. The eventual reality which found outside the cover is a chilling prospect. No already written sequel, and no plot-line to follow. It's the unpredictability of the world that I'm living now has been intimidating to many people, but to me there's the thrill that excites me. The unexpected, and the surprise that could happen.
However, it's tiring to anticipate, and be surprised all the time.
Maybe you could say it's a cycle. The thrill is fun and it is exciting. Too much of it, makes you scare, and makes you want to back out from the it. Then, you would go back to wishing everything will go according to your plan, just like a book, you could easily follow the storyline. You do not have to do anything. It will tell, and show you what to do. It's predictable. When this continues, it becomes dull and mundane. It is dry, and there's no excitement nor anticipation so you will yearn to go back to the thrilling lifestyle and be surprised again.
So I say this is a cycle.
26 September 2009 @ 06:03 pm
16 September 2009 @ 08:29 pm
12 July 2009 @ 07:57 pm
Lately, I had been so woven into how life has been treating me so good, for which at some point of time, I lost interest in writing the journal. It was tough holding on to several things all at once. So pardon me for the long silence here.
I'm back, hopefully it'll be long.
If you have been following me religiously on Twitter, you would have already know that I had gotten some achievement in the competition! I'm on second in the world finals, photography category, just two marks behind Croatia team :)
Imagine Cup World finals 09 in Cairo, Egypt had finally came down to a conclusion but for me, it's a new beginning. I had learnt so much from the competition itself, and also was blown away by the egyptian life, culture, people and wonders that I had encountered.
It had also been a great experience to be working under Leandro Doeyo, Colin Finlay and Graham Waite. It was exhilarating. No, that does not even suffice to what I had been through in Cairo, and the competition. Imagine Cup in Cairo was fucking brilliant!
It had been 4 months of hardwork and countless sleepless nights.
Only days before, from only with 36 hours on hand, to creating concepts, and execution with us, running all around Cairo, we are all burned out. However we did made it and it was definitely worth it. There were also new friendships that were made and connections from all over the world that were tied together all through the same purpose.
It's amazing that I'm being offered to such an opportunity that not everyone is presented to.
It's not only for myself, or the school, but also for the country.
I'm happy. I've never thought that this would happened but it did.
I know it's not just pure luck. It's really hardwork. You can't just understand and judge from our works and photographs alone. It's more than that. What you see on the surface doesn't necessarily reflect what had been happening at the back. People will never realize the efforts behind the win.
Poland will be the next! 2010, I can't wait :)
10 July 2009 @ 08:00 pm
13 June 2009 @ 11:48 am
20 May 2009 @ 11:26 pm
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world - Harriet Tubman.
16 May 2009 @ 07:11 pm
Photographer | Makiyo
Model | Melisa
Good news came knocking on my door this morning. I was woken up by the alarm set at 8am on my phone, also to find 2 unread messages. The first was my cousin telling me to send a copy of our sketches we did for Crowbar Awards to her email. While the next message was from Chessa, it says, "Call me now! We actually did get into Imagine Cup round 2!" And I thought it was an April's fool joke. Then I recalled oh it's way past April, and we're already in mid-May.
It couldn't be.
3 weeks ago, I remembered how we were so anxious and were anticipating to check the results during our first brand design lecture, only to be disappointed by the email from Imagine Cup which notified about our failure to proceed to the next round. It was indeed a huge bringdown and a great relutance to accept the news. We took almost a month to prepare for the competition. From squeezing our brains' juice for ideas, to execution, editing and final submission. Although it might considerably be a short preparation compared to many groups that had started as earlier as Aug 08. The confidence of getting into the next round never stood still. We only want to do our best for the first worldwide competition we're joining and I believe we did.
Faith never let us down. It's a surprise that I have never thought could happened to both of us. I have never thought I could believe in a miracle but at that point, it's magical. Microsoft is a huge coporation, and the organizer of the world's Imagine Cup competition. Not one could have thought they will make such a huge mistake. I don't blame them. At least they're granting us the extension of deadlines which might do us a good favor while we struggle for our assignments at the same time.
It taught me how we shouldn't let our hopes down even till the very last minute. We'll never know what might come through, and turn the table.
For now, we're going to try our fullest to get into the finals and compete in Egypt. Who knows, maybe we're able to take a trophy home this year!
10 May 2009 @ 01:42 am
The past 2 weeks in school were very fulfilling hence the long silence in my journal.
New modules, new assignments, we're back to square one again. The thought of losing my sleep for days just to complete my works dreads me. So I need to set a new mark, no more last minute work! The lecturers just keep burying us with assignments every single day, and I'm afraid there won't be any time left to do for Crowbars Awards. Talking about it makes me really thrilled because there are so many categories I want to sign up for. I'm aiming to submit at least 5 entries this year, if time allows of course. I will also be collaborating with my cousin who's currently in NTU now. Haha, imagine if we could win an award together. It'd be amazing!
Brand design has been really fun in Mr Azhar's class. The first week we were supposed to do a self-branding project by creating a logo and a name card for ourselves.
I feel my typography ain't too great and it doesn't have the wow factor or rather, not innovative enough.
I'll work/ improvise on a new logo soon, and probably be able to release my website by June too! Oh God, I know I have been dragging this for almost 2 years.
Currently, I'm on the project of branding for Boys Brigade 80th Anniversary. I must say it's tough to come out with a logo design not only to be in sync with the client's requests, but also to ensure its relevancy, the overall aesthetic feel and most importantly to achieve the communicative objectives. And there're definitely more to all of these I had learnt so far. It's going to be a long route.
Since I'm on a new semester, I'll be catching up with a fresh cca for a start, which means I'll be learning a new musical instrument! I can't wait! I hope I'm able to keep this going for long, and still able to keep up the pace with my piano practices. It's really challenging, because now I'm already having a hard time struggling with so many tasks all at once, and I'm adding even more workload to myself. I definitely don't see it as a tourture. I just want to experience with the things I want to do while I can -Still young and unafraid of nothing because I've got nothing to lose.
I'm going to live like as if tomorrow never comes and learn if I were to live forever.
So I wouldn't live with regrets.
28 April 2009 @ 11:01 pm
14 April 2009 @ 05:46 pm
I haven't been gone very long but it feels like a lifetime. I think I've taken the holidays for granted and now it's falling upon me that school's starting next week and I have not accomplished much of what I'm supposed to do. On the other hand, I finally land myself a job as the assistant photographer. Words can't express how excited I am feeling now. I'm totally for it! I will be assisting Chris who is a really talented wedding and portrait photographer. I am very grateful to get the opportunity to work with a practicing professional. I've talked to him for a while now and he is really nice. Our next assignment together will be in early May. Hope I'm able to get some photographs for my posts!
Besides this, I've spent way too much time and money, partying with my friends and on shopping this holiday. I've been eyeing a pair of boots from Ann Demeulemeester collection. But I'm not a rich kid so I've just placed a 120 USD worth of orders at Forever 21 instead. Haha, can't stop till I get enough. I'm kind of getting worried I'm not able to save enough for an internship in Europe/US next year. And I was thinking of going to Australia with Mel this August. I think I might have to eliminate this thought of going Aus again for now. To intern at a prestigious company is really important if I want to get into St. Martins. It's my dream! I'd die for it. I really want to be as good as Ashley Isham.
So away from the future and back to reality, last Sunday, I had a stall over at Flea titan at Mt Sophia with Chess and V. The place was over crowded and it's really stuffy even when the area is air-conditioned. There were a lot bargain queens and I can't believe I actually lost to them in deals and right, most of my loots are brand new! I was that desperate for money. Vencia came to drop by when the flea was about to end. Haha I was really happy she came because all my other friends were not able to make it in the end.
To end the post, I really hope Chess and I are able to get into the second round of the photography competition. The results will be out in late April. We tried really hard and did our best for it. It'll be our first honor and step to being recognized in the world.
Looking forward to meet my girls soon and a fashion shoot on Thursday and weekends!
Current Music: Fleet Foxes - Quiet Houses
11 March 2009 @ 01:02 am
I feel sometimes as if I were a child who opens its eyes on the world once and sees amazing things it will never know any names for and then has to close its eyes again. I know this is all mere apparition compared to what awaits us, but it is only lovelier for that. There is a human beauty in it. And I can't believe that, when we have all changed and put on incorruptibility, we will forget out fantastic condition of mortality and impermanence, the great bright dream of procreating and perishing that meant the whole world to us. In eternity this world will be Troy, I believe, and all that has passed here will be the epic of the universe, the ballad they sing in the streets. Because I don't imagine any reality putting this one in the shade entirely, and I think piety forbids me to try.
28 February 2009 @ 04:39 pm
It's all over for the fucking good.
I'm finally free from all the assignments that had me losing my sleep for weeks.
Cheers for the better weeks to come.
This week was pretty much about having the time of my life with friends.
Caught movie with Chessa, chilling out at in the night with the girls, night cycling for hours, and movie marathon till dawn. It felt really great not to worry about assignments anymore.
I got shortlisted for the design of the NDP banner this year.
There were a total of 6 people who were in the meeting room at MICA yesterday. A few had already attend university, are working in the society and I was the only one who is still studying for my diploma. Speaking truthfully, it's quite intimidating. I really wish that my design would get chosen in the end. It will be a great exposure for myself and a brilliant addition to my portfolio. So, yeah.
On the other hand, I finally developed my IV roll of film and they all turned out really nice.
( IV ROLL )
Since the holidays are here, I'm opening up for collaborations in photography.
So if you are interested, do mail me at tragictruth@gmail.com and see how we can work things out.
Current Music: The Dodos - Walking
13 February 2009 @ 07:42 pm
01 February 2009 @ 12:00 am
Photographer | Makiyo
Model | Melisa
Red Dress | Makiyo
The long overdue photograph from the shoot I took for the Little Red Dress competition but never had the chance to participate in the end. It's my first fashion shoot and I know it ain't that good. I have a poor control on the lightings, and a lot of adjustments have to be done digitally. It was a great experience though. The dress was made entirely from the red fabric I bought on a day before the shoot. Safety pins helped a lot too!
My love for film is slowing come back. For digital-wise, I feel like I'm being manipulated by photo-editing to the point that I've always been controlled by it. I might go back to film though. I really miss the feeling of the metal lever on my thumb as I forward the film on my range finder camera.
The colors on the prints are so warm and real. Though they'll age with time passes by, the imperfections actually made it more than just photographs. Film still wins, hands down.
06 January 2009 @ 08:39 am
I've had a tough time finding opportunities to update my journal lately. It's not that I'm in loss of what to write but I have been simply having a frenetic week with all the assignments piling up and deadlines inching closer. It's really tough juggling with a couple of things at one time. If only I knew better and manage my time well, I wouldn't have landed myself in these shits. Oh Well.
On the other hand, I had a photo shoot with Melisa last week. It was pretty rush, because the next day will be my submission date for my best two shots. I feel demeaning by my current photographs that I have taken so far because they are so far from my satisfaction. I really do ask a lot from myself. I always want the best and my work to be in top notch of the batch. The only way to do this is to live up to more than my expectation is.
Yeah and I understand, it was always done on the expense of my own health and it's bad. Anyway, I really have to thank Melisa for helping me up despite the bad weather, condition, getting dozen of mosquitoes bites, and my endless requests. It must have been tough for her to wear a dress and to model for a few hours in the forests. I had a lot of fun shooting and making the dress. It's a pity I didn't manage in time for the competition but the experience was worth enough and made it up for the loss. I promise myself that I'll bring an assistant for future shoots. It's crazy that I would have think that I was able to handle the whole shoot all by myself. To carry heavy bags of equipments for hours, and the reflectors which almost flew into the water because of the strong wind were utterly absurd. I could have died at that moment if that really happened. I realized I am really fortunate to have such supportive family and friends. It's amazing, really. I love you all!
Alrights, updates on the photographs of Melisa's shoots will be up soon. Keep checking this space!
On the other hand, I had a photo shoot with Melisa last week. It was pretty rush, because the next day will be my submission date for my best two shots. I feel demeaning by my current photographs that I have taken so far because they are so far from my satisfaction. I really do ask a lot from myself. I always want the best and my work to be in top notch of the batch. The only way to do this is to live up to more than my expectation is.
Yeah and I understand, it was always done on the expense of my own health and it's bad. Anyway, I really have to thank Melisa for helping me up despite the bad weather, condition, getting dozen of mosquitoes bites, and my endless requests. It must have been tough for her to wear a dress and to model for a few hours in the forests. I had a lot of fun shooting and making the dress. It's a pity I didn't manage in time for the competition but the experience was worth enough and made it up for the loss. I promise myself that I'll bring an assistant for future shoots. It's crazy that I would have think that I was able to handle the whole shoot all by myself. To carry heavy bags of equipments for hours, and the reflectors which almost flew into the water because of the strong wind were utterly absurd. I could have died at that moment if that really happened. I realized I am really fortunate to have such supportive family and friends. It's amazing, really. I love you all!
Alrights, updates on the photographs of Melisa's shoots will be up soon. Keep checking this space!
03 January 2009 @ 11:10 pm
Time to bid goodbye to 2008.
It never fails to amaze me how time flies incredibly fast. It had been a great year but I know 2009's going to be a lot better.
Here's to the New Year and to New Endings.
Cheers.
Current Music: The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build a Home